Dude you sound like you need professional help. Maybe seeing a therapist or shrink might help you find what you are looking for. Some of the phrases in your comments sound a little scary... seek help from a professional.
we all go thru that stuff, but there are alot worse things out there, people less fortunate. like people who own civics. or people without homes. or disabled . or sick. try hard to get ur life str8 , and dont involve urself in women for now, they affect men the most.
and dont involve urself in women for now, they affect men the most.
well said my friend........ take care buddy dont let things carry you away keep your head up and remeber that you have ppl especially here who always welcome you......