just wondering..probably, if someone does, they'll be too embarrassed or scared to admit it...

i've been known to...not excessively, but some. very rarely...and not much at all when i have done it...

don't tell me i need help, don't tell me i'm crazy, don't tell my you're worried about me. i don't need to hear those things. i know everything about this situation. i just wonder if there's anyone on here that's willing to admit to it...

i guess this is kninda a step out, but i really don't care?

again. don't tell me all the things i don't want, and don't NEED to hear. >>.

if you lose respect for me, that's fine, i understand. but i'm not a loose cannon, nor am i suicidal. and i'm not crazy...or maybe i am? >>. some people just have different releases for different situations.

so anyway. i know of at least one other person on here, but i won't mention their name..i just wonder if there's more..because it's somewhat common...

-John-

-Mynzeyes+Mar 16, 2005 - 11:49 PM
Bah.. that's me.. sigh. You're not crazy or suicidal. I understand.. everything.. <3..

And I want you to know, I still love you. And I am still always here for you, no matter what.

Best friends..

This post has been edited by Jen: Mar 16, 2005 - 11:54 PM

cuts what ? ...hair ? a rug ? in and out of traffic ?


J/K, cutting yourself is sometimes considered by some to be a rush, like an adrediline rush. For some, seeing the blood from cuts gives them an odd sense of well-being and strength - the same feelings that were stripped away from them at some point in their life. A self-injurer may injure themselves as a way of empowering themselves, as well. The person feels strong and in control by enduring the pain that they inflict on themselves.

That was good batman. You really hit the nail on the head.

My answer? You won't like it. Start smoking. Both kinds. I mellow out a lot by smoking cigs. And I've started smoking pot since the new year and I have mellowed out a **** load. As I understand, smoking pot regularly creates a chemical imbalance within ur body so it alters your sober mind too. I'm sure thats a bit off, so someone please correct me.

back in the day, i cut out of sheer boredom, and also because i did enjoy the blood, and the pure physics behind the cuts, and how everything reacted.

as far as smoking..i've done that way back in the past, but my anxiety won't allow me to enjoy it. i hated it. >>.

-John-

-Jen+Mar 16, 2005 - 10:52 PM

i wish that were good enough...

probably the wrong thing to say but I agree with you. sometimes you just need to chill out .. rather than resorting to something like cutting. my opinion


-SlowCelica94+Mar 17, 2005 - 1:23 AM

dude...we are concerned...

I've had my fair share of experiences with it.

Many of my friends seem to use that as an escape... Its not the act itself thats an issue its the enjoyment of it progressing to more severe cuts, just as a small drug addict can move up the chain untill it is a problem. Your not unusual to be doing that though if thats what you wanted to hear, but most of my friends who do it are young tryna act cool or heavy drug addicts. There are much better ways to deal with fustration, though I wouldnt recommend drugs, alcohol is certainly my blessing against stress >>.

personally i think cutting is lame and pointless. but thats just me. and im also VERY sensative about the topic of suicide so i wont even go there.

john,
i understand where you are coming from... hell your the only one on here that know half the shiot ive been though. what i used to do was actually carve myself... make sure i left a mark... thankfully all my scars are not visable, i think that the fact that i get tattooes now lessen my need to carve myself... im not saying get yourself inked up but you gotta find alternatives... you know you can talk to me on aim anytime you want...

-DMC
Bryan

I usually resort to a punching bag to let out myself wen i truly need it. Im not a crazy guy and go crazy on the bag, but more like practising something, like a martial art or something gets me on a good mood...

-SlowCelica94+Mar 17, 2005 - 12:23 AM

Yeah I started smoking.. I never have really had tons of problems in my life, but enough to make me pissed off an angry or dpressed. Im a very laid back guy and can tolerate a LOT. Somtimes you just have to not care. Now im quiting smoking. It sucks. but I have to, caus eim not going to end up like my dad smoking three packs a day. Also it hurst like hell when i run.

As for stress relief or anything.. I norm hit stuff.. Yes im the big dumbass that will hit a wall a car a post when im angree. I nearly broke my hand once when my g/f was pissing me off real bad and I hit a metal light post. Couldnt move it for like 2 weeks. Now I work with wieghts reg to releave stress and such and work ont he bag a lot too.

As for self inflicting pain. I understand cutters kinda of . I dont like cutting myself. but i think its cool when i get a hudge cut or somthing. and also well let my buddie hit me as hard as they can. I enjoy pain (my whole topic about wanting to get into a car wreck)

This post has been edited by Digndoug: Mar 17, 2005 - 1:26 PM

Never never never would I cut myself or think about it. Im too much of a pansy when it comes to pain! My brother used to cut himself and even shaved off his eyebrows due to his depression. I just dont get it. I cry when I stub my toe so theres no way im cutting myself on purpose.

I don't cut...I donate Blood. Two Units is the max they let me give and it's only every 3-6 months.

I nominate this to be the wierdest thread ever.

-Anub1s+Mar 17, 2005 - 3:33 PM

weird how? it's a real thing...

now, had i said, "who paints pictures of purple and orange unicorns, and dances around in their socks w/ a propeller hat around said picture, while pink floyd's "the wall" is playing in the background"...THAT would be weird.

everyone needs and outlet where u can just let go of stress and every thing.
for me thats driving on narrow backroads just listening to music and tune out the world. most enjoyable thing in the world to me.

in highschool i saw alot of cutting and asked people why they did it becasue i really didnt understand it. i still dont but if it ur oulet go for it. its not hurting anyone else.

I'd be the first on that list!

-x_itchy_b_x+Mar 17, 2005 - 4:59 PM

i did/do that too...

-x_itchy_b_x+Mar 17, 2005 - 3:59 PM


I completely disagree - you have no idea the pain it caused my parents. It doesnt only cause pain to the person who is cutting themselves but to people around them.

-BlackCelicaGT94+Mar 17, 2005 - 5:26 PM

^ agreed and true.

not all hurt is physical...

John, u need a vac. Come out here and visit next time we have a meet. Ill pick u up at the airport. U have a blast out here.

-madmods+Mar 17, 2005 - 11:32 PM

pay for my ticket? >>.

btw, i found a pic:

I new a guy at Fred Meyer that carved "Kill Me" into his arm, I though he was crazy and "stuff" I dont understand why hurting yourself could be a release on anything less then a horrific cry for help, but thats just me. we all have our ways of releasing presure/tenstion that are not exactly "Constructive" I wont fault you for it.

when i feel so over the edge that i might do something bad to myself i try and go to sleep or watch a horrificly scary movie, knowing that it will pass.

Little Life Story:
You know, once when i was in Jr. High, I had such a bad time dealing with everyone making fun of me and picking on me for no reason that i when i got home i grabed a knife and planned to kill my self to end it, my parents stoped me and I ended up going to consoling to lean how to tone it out etc. I only went a few times, but after that i just leared where to walk and how to stay out of peoples ways (became invisible to all except my close friends) (probibly why natalie does not remember me from jr high, or HS.) But look at me know, I have a great job with Microsoft (becoming a nerd has its advantages,) a great car, and sept for being currently single I dont think I could be happier. You never know what life will give you if you give it a chance.

john... talk to me!

ive never understood cutting, but at the moment i am quite irritated with things and somehow it does not sound like an irrational idea... but then again when i have alcohol in me ive been known to do some VERY irrational things... Stress is a b*tch...

So true...

-Mynzeyes+Mar 17, 2005 - 9:44 PM

Man you said you wouldn't tell anyone!